
Speaking of going out of my comfort zone, I took a little jaunt even further outside last week when I went on holiday to Ireland and Sweden. On my way to Ireland I was thinking, “What the heck am I doing?” I was taking two planes to get there, only to be greeted by a friend I haven’t seen in 2 ½ years, a guy I knew for a summer while working at camp together. When I last saw Jamie, he was an athletic, outgoing, warm-hearted 19-year old. A few weeks after he returned to the U.K. he broke his back playing rugby and is now confined to a wheelchair. What would that be like? Everything about the trip was a huge unknown and I wondered if I should have stayed back at Grimerud and had a safe and koselig little Easter holiday there.
But, yet again, God surprised me! Looking back it seems to me that He wanted to give me that trip to Ireland as a little gift, wrapped up in emerald paper and smelling of the sea. Jamie and I had so much fun together, and his parents were amazing, generous, hospitable people. Every morning I got up before Jamie and had breakfast with his parents, having great long talks with his mom.
On Easter Sunday we went to his church where I was greeted so warmly and we rocked the house celebrating that Jesus is alive, complete with dancing and party poppers. We hung out in Belfast and saw Fifty Dead Men Walking, a film about The Troubles in Ireland that was totally violent but really interesting and helped me get an idea of what was going on in the country only a few decades ago. I drank a half-pint of Guiness in a real Irish pub with copper kettles hanging from the ceiling and dozens of people singing along to old Irish songs.
My favorite day was when we drove up to the North Coast of Northern Ireland with Jamie’s sweet friend Jenny Lee and toured a castle that made me feel like Lucy in Prince Caspian, exploring the ruins of Cair Paravel. We marveled at the natural beauty of Giant’s Causeway and couldn’t get over the amazing weather as we waited to cross the Carrick-a-rede rope bridge. We took the train down to Dublin with Jenny Lee and Jamie’s friend Steven and had a great time despite crap weather, and spent the afternoon in a heated theological discussion (love it) in Temple Bar.

I had the best tea of my life every day, and I loved how when I ordered tea at a café they always gave a whole teapot – two cups for the price of one! I loved hearing Irish accents everywhere – the low, soothing tone; the lilting rhythm of it; the way they really do say “wee” all the time…even the guys!
Hanging out with Jamie again was so cool, and not only because he’s totally fun and hilarious. Jamie’s unshakable belief in God’s promises was an absolute inspiration to me. He’s in an awful situation but is not pitying himself. Instead he is going on with his life and always believing that Jesus will heal him and he will walk again. I was so moved by his faith, and so humbled when I thought of how I would respond in such a situation – probably crying and sighing a lot and feeling bitter toward God and everyone else.
Of course I left Jamie a little thank you note before I left, but in case he ever reads this blog, I just want to say, Thank you Jamie. You were an amazing host and I had a fantastic time. You are welcome back to California any time.
But mostly, I just want to thank my Father, God, for yet again surprising me with a little gift, just another dream come true from His heart to mine. He totally patiently leads me out of my comfort zone to experience His love and be astounded by it in new ways.

Dunluce Castle on the North Coast (aka ruins of Cair Paravel)

Me and Jamie. Near Giant’s Causeway. Do you see the camel in the mountain between us?

Jenny Lee and I at Giant’s Causeway. Those “cobblestones” are naturally formed!

In Dublin with Jamie and his friend Steven (who started said heated theological discussion). They filmed a scene from “Once” in this park.

Queen’s University in Belfast, Northern Ireland

The Temple Bar in Temple Bar, where, due to an unfortunate misunderstanding, I was bought a Coors Light instead of a Stella. Boo.

















I know, right? Another movie post? Don’t worry, I won’t spend this one swooning over Tom Cruise *shudder* like I did over Robert Pattinson. But last night Anne-Mai (my new movie buddy) and I went over to Potsdamer Platz to see Valkyrie. I really wanted to see it while I was here in Berlin, for obvious reasons. The theater at Potsdamer is sweet not only because they sell beer and wine at the concession stand or because it’s kinda fancy and has a big red curtain that opens and closes in between the trailers and the feature presentation. Another plus is that they show most movies in their original language, meaning I don’t have to suffer through subtitles (I dare you to try NOT reading them) or worse, dubbing in German! Anyway, the downside (or up, depending on who you talk to) is that the place is crawling with foreigners…like me. I really wanted to watch Valkyrie while sitting amongst a sea of well-dressed, beer sipping, intellectual Germans who would loudly discuss the movie afterwards (and I would somehow magically understand them). Instead, I had three American gay guys in front of me and an Asian girl who sounded SO Californian sitting behind me. Another clue that she was from L.A. was that she was bragging about knowing some guy who had a bit part in the movie. But there was a grumpy German guy next to me, so I guess that’s something. (I was totally scared of him…before the movie started, he yelled at the guy behind him for kicking his seat. So later, I was afraid he would yell at me for eating my apple too loudly – I waited for loud explosions in the movie to take small, furtive bites.)
Considering how much I travel, one would really think I’d be better at it. But I seriously suck at traveling. As I’ve recounted before on this blog, I remember standing in the shower the night before my dream vacation of touring through Europe for three weeks with one of my best friends. What was I thinking? ”What the HECK am I doing? I don’t want to go!” And of course I went and had the time of my life. When those three weeks were up, I came home for a few days to catch my breath, do some laundry, and repack for Maryland, where I would work as a camp counselor all summer. The night before I left, while trying to find a parking space at Olive Garden with my sister, I had another meltdown. Forget it, I’ll just stay here all summer! And of course, the next day I boarded a plane and had one of the best summers of my life at Camp Sonshine. Before I left for Australia, same thing. And before Norway. Always the same panicked second-guessing of myself, my plans, my packing lists. It’s similar to the pre-party meltdowns I’m infamous for (“What if we run out of food? What if no one shows up? Why do I look so ugly?”). When will I grow out of this?